Fall Semester: A Reflection

I wish I could say that I'm officially done with this semester, but I still have one more final tomorrow at 8AM.  And, this will be the first time ever, that I studied before play time. The past couple posts haven't necessarily been blogs, but more like lists and surveys and life lessons. So, I'm writing an old-fashioned blog tonight. Tonight's post is all about reflecting on the absolute MAD HOUSE this semester has been and how ever flipping grateful I am that it is over. 

This whole semester has been an ongoing roller coaster of ups and downs. There were a LOT of times where I was seriously considering dropping Air Traffic entirely and go into communications for writing, because if I'm not controlling airplanes, I want to write books and play music and sell wittle crafts, like tiny crochet'd elephants or, I don't know, clay owls. Yes, for the rest of my life. And I kept getting into these weird moods where I was constantly asking myself if ATC was the right choice for me or if I should really do something that will make me happy? It's not that ATC doesn't make me happy; it excites me beyond belief. It's just that the class I was in this semester was dreadfully boring and overly complicated. And the more time I spent around the bandmates, I think we were all going through this "I need to find myself" kind of thing, my feelings heightened. As the semester dragged on, however, and after like, one million breakdowns and self re-evaluations, I think I'm okay with myself again. This still doesn't change the fact that I want to cut my hair off and put red, blue, and purple streaks in it. 

I will say, though, I think I've learned more this semester than I have any other semester my entire life. I had had an amazing bunch of teachers, minus 2, who need to sit in on their own classes. Perhaps they'll understand why there was essentially a mass silent agreement to not participate in, what I refer to as, The PowerPoint Drone Chronicles. My favourite, favourite teacher this semester was Dr. Stotland, my super-hottie-Russian-accent-having World History professor. He was just extremely engaging and I can honestly say that I have never loved history, nor learned more from a history class than I did from Stotland. I also loveeeed my mythology class. The course ended up being exceedingly more difficult than I intended it to be, but I learned some fantastic life lessons in there. Like, that the best people get the worst trials because they keep passing the tests over and over. And we keep getting trials thrown at us because a higher power wants us to grow into the best and strongest people possible; once we've stopped growing from trials, what else is there to live for? 

If everything goes according to plan, I should end up with 4 A's and 2 B's this semester. It's not as good as I was hoping for, but I seriously need to chillax on the whole Capricorn Thing and lay off myself. And as much as I try to not get mad at myself for having 2 B's, I can't help it. I really need to work on being more easy-going. I actually chuckled when I wrote that because I've been trying to do that for years. Yeah-freaking-right. 

Highlights of the semester would definitely consist of the mystery drawings on the whiteboard every morning before history class, the Halloween Party at Dan & Katie's, the music festival I went to with Logan and Ben, arguing with my weather professor until he gave me the extra 3 points that I deserved on my exam, entering a pie eating contest, adding a 4th member to the band and realizing how much we've evolved together as musicians, being referred to as "Sunshine," "Bright Eyes," "My Favourite Hippie," and "Perky" by the Air Traffic Professors, cutting my hair off, being introduced to so many fantastic musicians, and applying for spring graduation.

Normally, this would be the part where I would list the low lights of the semester, but I honestly don't want to relive those. All I can say is that I'm so happy to call myself (one-final-away-from-being) DONE with this fall semester. And I can happily, and proudly say that it will be my LAST fall semester! Counting down the days until I am on the train and on my way to Pennsylvania, where I will spend the holidays and leave the low lights of fall behind me. 

xx 

My Current Life in 90 Questions...

Remember those surveys you used to do ALL the time when MySpace was cool, and you were online until like, three in the morning filling out 150 questions about yourself. Well, I'm bringing it back. This post is all about nostalgia and "My Current Life in 90 Questions."

1. What was the highlight of your week?
The Big Ticket! A 12 hour music festival of back-to-back bands consisting of Paper Tongues, Grouplove, Of Monsters and Men, FUN., Rise Against, Anberlin, Silversun Pickups, Flogging Molly, and like, a bajillion others. It was nonstop madness and I had an absolute BLAST! Ahhh, I love music festivals.
2. Whose car were you in last?
Mine!
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
On the evening of December 13th when I'm reunited with Andrew! WOOH!
4. What color shirt are you wearing?
Not wearing a shirt. ;) Mmmm. Jk. Totally wearing a yellow dress.
5. How long is your hair?
I guess to my chest.....
6. Are you good looking?
You know it. I be one hawt chicca. Boiis be breakin' der neckks.
7. Last movie you watched?
BRAVE! And it was bloody fantastic. I knew I should've bought it on Black Friday.
8. Who were you with?
The two kiddies I was babysitting.
9. Last thing you ate?
Goldfish, ya'll!
10. Last thing you drank?
Dat Desani.
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
I guess like, almost 2 years ago. But I quickly healed! <3
12. Who came over last?
Eric?
13. Are you happy right now?
I'd be happier if I were listening to good music opposed to the droning of my weather professor in the background.
14. What did you say last?
"No, I meant that we have to endure the conflicts in order to achieve greatness later on."
15. Where is your phone?
In front of me, on this desk.
16. What color are your eyes?
Blue/green/gold
17. Are you left-handed?
Nah.
18. Spell your name without vowels:
Shl
19. Do you have any pets?
No. I'd like a tiny turtle though. Or a puppy-sized elephant.
20. Favorite Vacation?
Last Christmas in the Northeast! I love dead trees.
21. What do you dislike currently?
How much CRAP I have to do between this week and next.
22. What are you listening to?
I should be listening to this weather lecture...
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Andrew. Always.
24. What is your favorite scent?
Italian food and gasoline. Nice combination.
25. Who makes you happiest?
Sigh, Andrew gets this one again.
26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Skyping with Andrew! Seriously, I need a life.
27. When is your birthday?
January 17, 1992. Ya girl's almost 21.
28. Who has the same phone as you?
Pretty much everyone of my generation that isn't an Apple Hater.
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
I don't remember. Sometime in August, I believe.
30. Do you read your horoscope?
I used to everyday, but I'm relying more on my own intuition these days.
31. Where was the last place you bought something?
It's a secret! CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!
32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
It needs more layers and I want blue and purple and red streaks.
33. Do you bite your nails?
Sometimes. I'm more of a pull and rip kinda girl.
34. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
None that I've bought for myself. I don't know what others have paid for my jewelry.
35. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Typical MySpace survey - duplicating questions. Usually the response is, "Didn't I already answer this question?" lolol
36. Myspace or Facebook?
O-M-G, like, FACEBOOK! TOTES!
37. How fast have you driven a car?
60?
38. Have you ever smoked?
Nope.
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
English in high school & Air Traffic Control in college.
40. Do you have Verizon?
Nope - AT&T.
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
FUNNY, dark hair, & usually, almost always, my best friend.
42. Do you have any hidden talents?
If they're hidden, I haven't found them yet.
43. Favorite Song?
Currently, "Welcome Home" by Radical Face; the entire Of Monsters and Men album, and "Itching on a Photograph" by Grouplove. Oh, and "North by North" by Faded Paper Figures
44. Do you like to sing at all?
YES. I love it. I lovelovelove making music.
45. Dream Job?
In addition to controlling airplanes? Home daycare with writing novels on the side and selling crafts on Etsy. And acting pretentious with my tea on my front porch listening to indie rock.
46. Where does most of your family live?
Florida!
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
Younger sister, 16 & younger brother, 9.
48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I've been given everything I want - but I don't have a spoiled attitude. I know the value of work ethic.
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
"That was an amazing dream."
50. Do you drink?
Well, I do get a little crazy on the Capri-Sun and cuppa sometimes.
51. Know any other languages?
I took Spanish for two years. Didn't do a lick. Obsessed over Doctor Who: learned British English, Scottish English, Sycorax, Sontaran, and other various alien species.
52. Ever write a coded message?
Oh, yes. My friends and I had our own language and nicknames for people in our notes we passed in middle school. I still code people with nicknames.
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Nah. I caught the bouquet once, though.
54. Do you have any children?
I babysit a lot...
55. Did you take a nap today?
I wish.
56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Jim Carrey and The Guy who Invented the Toilet.
57. Ever met anyone famous before?
Tom Felton, Evanna Lynch, Scarlett Byrnes, and pretty much every supporting character in the Harry Potter series. I think I've met others, but these are the only ones that matter to me.
58. Do you want to be famous one day?
Sometimes I want to our band to get recognized and then other times I just want a career.
59. Any Pet Peeves?
Teachers not posting grades on Blackboard and people who think they know everything.
60. Are you multitasking right now?
I appear that way.
61. Do you like Britany Spears?
That's not how her name is spelled. Her birthday was yesterday and her favourite color is baby blue and her favourite ice cream is cookie dough. I met her twice (OH! Another famous person I met!) and I will forever BE A FAN!!!! DON'T HATE. Jk.
62. What is your least favorite chore?
Laundry!
63. Last place you drove your car?
Where I get dat cashflow.
64. Ever been out of the country?
Unfortunately, no.
65. Where were you born?
Daytona Beach. Ol' 3-8-6.
66. Could you handle being in the military?
I'm not a fan of how this question is worded.
67. What is your average cell phone bill?
No idea.
68. Who are you thinking about right now?
How upset I am that Logan is leaving and how badly I don't want our band to stop playing music because Logan is leaving.
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Yesterday. It was just one massive gigglefest.
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Probably only like, 20 pair.
71. Are your toes always painted?
Mmhm. Fire engine red with a green tip for the holiday season! ;D
72. How many piercings do you have?
3 in mah ears.
73. What are you doing today?
Work, school, work, study, eat, musicmusicmusic, Skype, bed.
74. Have you ever been gambling?
Nope. Still a baby.
75. When is the last time you updated your page?
I posted a few pictures on Facebook last night.
76. Do you like roller coasters?
Absolutelyyy.
77. Have you ever been to Disneyland or Disney World?
Disneyland, no. Disney World - YESYESYES. Many times and it never gets old! <3<3<3
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Not really. Anything from the 90's, though. Doug, Rugrats, AH! Real Monsters. OH, and currently, Rainbow Dash and Pinky Pie from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. :3
79. Last thing you cooked?
Soup!
80. How’s the weather?
Slightly warm, with a too-cold breeze, mostly cloudy.
81. Do you e-mail?
Oh, quite frequently.
82. What’s the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Flushed it down the toilet.
83. Last time you were sick?
A couple weeks ago: Strep & then a sinus infection. xP
84. What states have you lived in?
Florida.
85. Do you wish you could move?
I'mmmm still debating. Portland, Oregon is always calling my name.
86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
HA. Probably when I was 14.
87. What is your dream car?
I don't really have one. As long as it's pretty and safe, I'm good.
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
Everyone, ever, until I met the love of my life. (:<3
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
I don't really care for where I am as long as the stress of finals would just go away.
90. Are you happy with your life?
I absolutely LOVE my life. Everything in it is perfectly perfect.

That was the best waste of my time, ever. Now, go re-post with a new title within the next 15 minutes, or 8 billion tigers will attack you in your sleep at 11:13 tonight!!!!! THIS IS NOT A JOKE! SERIOUSLY. I saw someone get attacked in their sleep by 8 billion tigers at 11:13 PM because they didn't re-post this!!!!! THIS IS FOR REAL!!!!!

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Books read: 26

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Bandwagon-ing.

So, we're ten days into November, which means that everyone in America makes the decision to abandon all effort for clever statuses for twenty-five or thirty days and simply post one thing that they are thankful for each day. (I'm not entirely sure if these thankful posts are going to end on Thanksgiving or if they last the entire month of November.) Don't get me wrong, I love reading what everyone is thankful for; I love it, really. I just think we should be thankful for these things 365 days rather than 25 or 30 (I'm still unclear on this number). 

That being said, I'm going to completely contradict my last statement and toss my I-Won't-Ever-Jump-On-Bandwagons belief to the wind and make a list of thirty things that I'm thankful for. (Check out that alliteration). 

This way, I can get all thirty things out of the way now and not be bound by the chains of 30 Thankful Statuses on Facebook.

1. Of course, my family. My mom, dad, sister, brother, and grandparents. 
2. The love of my life, my best friend, and soul mate, Andrew! My muffin!<3
3. My education I've been blessed with. I've been given an amazing opportunity to be pursuing a career that I'm in love with. 
4. The Harry Potter universe! The books, movies, video games, board games, theme park, and J.K. Rowling for giving me the best escape and teaching me the power of love.
5. MUSIC. 
6. And of course, Native Tapestries. I love making music with my best friends. I'm so thankful for The Two Logans and Ben and the music we make as a collective. (:
7. The country I live in. I'm blessed to have the freedom to be an individual and express who I am in all aspects.
8. Nail polish, hair bows, feathers, chunky jewelry, and lace-up boots. I'm thankful for my own sense of style. I'm an indie child.
9. Books. 
10. Cool, fall weather! 
11. Doctor Who, Castle, Once Upon a Time, Pan-Am, Food Network, and all my other favourite shows on telly. :3
12. Google. I don't know how I would survive without it. 
13. Disney. My childhood would have never been the same without it. I would have grown up too fast, never known to wait for my Prince Charming, and never realized what a little wishin' can do. ;D
14. Having the blessing of clean water and wholesome food.
15. My sleeping space. I LOVE my bed. It's my haven; the lights, the pillows, the posters...I could live in there. 
16. HOLIDAYS. 
17. I'm thankful for my teachers. I know I went through a "cool phase" in middle school and gave 'em hell. But I'm sorry for that. I'm truly thankful for all of the teachers in my life. Both in the school system and in other areas of my life.
18. For the ability to try ANYTHING I want. Ice skating, dance, cheerleading  piano, basketball, theatre, chorus; I love having the freedom to find what I'm good at and what defines me.
19. Love. I'm thankful that I've found it and I truly feel sorry for the people who don't know love at all.
20. For the shoes on my feet and the clothes on my body. 
21. Hot, sudsy, candle-lit bubble baths, underscored with ambient music and good chocolate. 
22. Pictures and the technology to edit, filter, upload, share and save memories in an instant.
23. POTATOES
24. The beach, mountains, trees, rivers, lakes, grassy fields, and towering clouds. I'm thankful for the beauty of this world. 
25. The vastness of the ocean.
26. A clear, cold night, a full moon, and the sky sprinkled with stars.
27. That my sister considers me as her hero. I hope I can always be the model on the pedestal she displays me on, for both her and my brother. 
28. Warm, sunny days by the pool, slurpin' on a fruit-kabob!
29. Air travel. Everyone should be have the chance to see everything they want to see in their lifetime. Thank God, we upgraded from the Mayflower...
30. And finally, I'm thankful to be ALIVE. I'm thankful for my health, my spirit, my passion, drive, and for every breath I take and beat my heart makes.

What are you thankful for?

xx 

Books read: 26

Outlets, Expression, Babies, and Just a lot of DEEPNESS

          I can't believe it's been seven months since I've blogged, but I really think it's time again. I've got so much going on and I just really need some outlets. Just to get you guys up to date, the band is still together, I'm still blonde (with the exception of the new blue streak!), I'm still an Air Traffic student, and I'm still obsessed with too many fandoms.
           Yes, the band is still together and we're making more music again, FINALLY. I've really missed hanging out with theguys and just having a blast and exhaling the week's baggage through music. I think everyone needs an outlet to purge the bad within ourselves. Sometimes we let the stress of our jobs and schooling define us and we forget the beauty of the little things and who we are as individuals. It's like we become sponges; we take in a little stress here and a little stress there, and we take it to heart when people hurt us. And we absorb all of the bad of the day or week or even month and we lose track of our hearts; we don't squeeze out those things that we've absorbed. I think that's why I get in these moods where all I want to do is listen to music and make music and play music and be with the people I love. I just want to squeeze out the bad and get back to my heart through singing with my best friends and WRITING. We all need outlets to get back in touch with ourselves. Find one, if you haven't. (:
         I've also recently acquired a handful of babysitting jobs. I watch an 18 month old girl, a two year old boy, and a four year old Autistic boy. It really bothers me when adults say, he or she is "just a kid." It's like, just because a person isn't over 18, they can't teach adults anything. I can honestly say that I've learned so much from these kids that haven't even reached Kindergarten-age, yet. It just amazes me how kids' minds are so simple and appreciate everything. They hang on to every single moment. While us adults are almost never satisfied with what we have, constantly upgrading, buying more, and we're rushing all the time, I can put my hands over my eyes and then reappear in a matter of seconds, and to a child, it's the most fascinating thing in the world. The greatest part is that they will never get sick of it. Ever. It's amazing that they fight each other for your attention and if you throw one in the air, you have to throw the other. And it's exhausting and tiring and no, you don't get time for yourself until they're asleep. But it's the most exciting and invigorating experience I could ever ask for. The innocence and simple-mindedness of a child is refreshing; and it too, helps me remember to appreciate the little things. Like peek-a-boo.
          I know this return post is deep; it's kind of more for myself than for you, readers. But I do hope, that if you haven't purged your sponge or done something for YOURSELF to make the light inside of you shine brighter, I encourage you to do it! It's fun! I promise!
          Also, some bands that are awesome for this sort of thing:
The Head and the Heart
The Paper Kites
Of Monsters and Men
Mumford & Sons

xx

Books read: 26

New Developments & Exciting Things

I know you're probably sick of me disappearing for weeks at a time and then coming back to apologize for my extended leave of absence. School for the past month got extremely out of control and that has been my entire focus for the past 30 days. But the semester is OVER and there are so many amazing things that has happened is happening and I'm just so excited to be apart of a lot of awesome projects. This week started off beautifully because I celebrated my one-year anniversary with the love of my life. Despite a one-thousand mile separation, we still celebrate it right: 

A Skype Date Celebration at midnight with my party hat and I came home to a beautiful hand-written letter and gorgeous bouquet of flowers. I seriously have the greatest guy, ever. <3
Other exciting news! I get to see this amazing guy in like, THREE days! It'll be exactly 76 days since our last encounter and I couldn't be more ecstatic to spend nine days with him and his family in Pennsylvania! Cannot WAIT to see the beaches of Jersey, Yankee Stadium, and so many other places! 


I also got a part at Daytona Playhouse in the summer One-Acts show so I'll be working on that for the first half of the summer and I'm so excited! I haven't been on stage since last summer and I need my fixxx. On top of that, it's looking like a full Summer A semester and I'm going to be a lab rat for the Daytona TRACON class, plus working and band-stuff! I was also asked to be a lab rat for the Daytona Tower class for fall, so definitely going to try and do that on top of 18 credits. Ah, so much good happenings happening! 


I guess the most exciting thing in my life at the moment is Native Tapestries. A folky/rocky/indie/bluesy sounding band consisting of myself, and my friends Logan & Ben. 

It's the closest I've been to music since high school and it's truly just, ah, making me the happiest person in the world.  We mostly just jam on Friday nights, but we're trying to get in with some Open Mic Nights. Last night, we played a few songs at Java Jungle and the energy and response was fantastic! Lots and LOTS of new things to come with Native Tapestries, I'm just not going to announce them right now because I want to build suspense like really famous bands do. Also, I think I'm going to start a blog for Native Tapestries and just update everyone with new developments and our progress and things happening. So if you're following this blog, be sure to follow that one, too! I'll post when it's up! Also-also, if you haven't already, make sure you check us out on Facebook! www.facebook.com/NativeTapestries <=== We've had the page for about 5 days now and reached the first 100 likes in less than 24 hours! We're now up to a little over 120 and we couldn't be happier. Make sure you guys check out our music; I promise it'll be worth the 3-4 minutes out of your life! <3


Summer is here and I plan to pick up my reading goal again and be in a play and singsingsing and go to school and do lots of summer projects! Thanks for putting up with my lack of blogging for a month! Pinky promise it won't be this bad over the summer! 


x


Books Read: 9

Spring Break: A Recap

One of my favourite things about spring break is the overload of mirrored statuses and photo captions that read, "No makeup, pjs, hair up, glasses: Spring Break 2012." As much as I agree with the aforementioned statement, why do over half of the female population on Facebook feel that it's such a cute way to kick off spring break? I, in fact, spent the majority of my spring break in my pajamas with my hair in a knot on the top of my head and my face refusing the perks of makeup. I also blasted indie rock throughout my flat and played an excessive number of board games and read a grand total of 787 pages this week. I really thought that number would be more impressive. In addition, I think I bettered myself at Mario Cart, placing in the top 4 every time, rather than pulling a sorry seventh through tenth. I officially earned one sunburn and gained three pounds: watched eight straight episodes of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, 11 straight episodes of Avatar: The Last Airbender, and six of the eight Harry Potter films.


I was really excited that I held the first of many board game nights on Monday night. The tiresome and grilling half an hour of grinding a 14'' pepperoni stick in a blender paid off: the dip was a hit. And I was surprised everyone showed up and had an awesome time playing Harry Potter: Scene It? and QWELF. I was so sure my team was going to win Scene It, but somehow, Ashley and Justin pulled this card and got to take the lead: finally winning the three hour long tournament. QWELF is this really awesome game consisting of weird characters like, "Mrs. Picklefeather," "The Dude," "Biscuit Farmer," and others. The point is to get around the multi-coloured spaces which correlate to a designated action card. Yellow spaces are the stunt cards; for example, one person had to make a mask out of household items. Red spaces are the scatter brainz cards, where each player writes down a word belonging to the chosen category on the card. Blue spaces correlate with the rules cards: the person who drew the card may have to talk like a pirate the entire game, or make a flush noise whenever someone performs a penalty. (Penalties are taken when a player refuses to act on their card or answers a quiz question incorrectly.) Some rules cards may be for the entire group; such as, whenever the phone rings, all players must jump up and scream "Pizza Party!" The last to perform the action takes the penalty. Green spaces are quizzle cards, asking ridiculous questions like, "Which one of these men was Reese Witherspoon not married to?" And finally, the purple cards. These cards are always the most fun: the action cards. For example, the person who draws the purple card may have to do a hula dance while singing Hawaiian music or mime taking a picture of each player while saying things like, "Work it!" "Bad kitty!" and "Show me the money!" This game was so much fun and is definitely recommended!


Now, all I want to do is have more of these themed parties. I usually have an annual Harry Potter party where guests must dress as characters or their house colours and wizard rock is played and the movies are watched with our wands out. I plan on having an Avatar: The Last Airbender themed party in May and of course, the fourth annual Harry Potter Party. I'm also working on a Hunger Games party.. but that will take an exceptional amount of planning. More details coming soon.

OH. AND THE HUNGER GAMES! I scooped up five friends and went to the midnight premier of The Hunger Games. My sister and I looked so fly in our Katniss braids and HG t-shirts:

I, along with probably a zillion others, have been waiting for this day forever. And just like a zillion others, I was nervous that the movie would not live up to standards. But I can honestly say, the movie was EXTREMELY well-crafted. I need to go see it again because I was mostly just stunned the first time I saw it. All of the characters were picked perfectly, and I really loved seeing the Gamemakers' control room. The scenery was exactly how I imagined it. Ahh, just everything about the film was beautiful. Some of the minor things that did bother me was that Katniss didn't wait in front of the fence to listen for the hum of the electricity. She kind of just dived through it without giving any regard to the possibly-humming-fence. I also didn't like that Madge wasn't the one who gave Katniss the Mockingjay pin, nor did her and Peeta put the berries in their mouths at the end of the games. I love that part because that line,

"'You didn't swallow any?' I ask him.

He shakes his head. 'You?'

'Guess I'd be dead by now if I did,' I say."

It's such a cute scene and I really wish they kept it. But other than that, everything else was just perfect and completely exceeded my expectations. Only 606 days until Catching Fire. I can do this. I can wait.


Spring Break was a success. And tomorrow it's back to the dreadful hours of class and work and I just need it to be April 26th already! I'm going to go bleeding mad.


Books read: 8

Response to "Dear Body"

Dear Body: A Letter of Apology and Gratitude

Dear hair, 

I love you. You always know exactly what I want and you never make me look ridiculous. Thank you for always being thick and blonde and have the ability to straighten, scrunch, curl, crimp, and still look awesome when I don't do anything to you. I'm sorry for thinking my hands had the skill to cut you in eighth grade in efforts to save me a few dollars. I promise to never torture you like that again. 

Dear skin,

I'm sorry for being embarrassed of you for so many years due to your lack of pigmentation and for spending so many hours in the sun without protection in attempts to change you. I'm also going to apologize for the rest of my peers and class mates for teasing you; you don't deserve that. Thank you for protecting me and keeping me cold and warm and never cursing me with more than one acne breakout per month. 

Dear teeth: 

Thank you for saving me from the social embarrassment of the paradox of crooked teeth. Ridicule for crooked teeth and then ridicule for braces. You're beautiful. I feel I've taken care of you over the years and you've repaid me. Perhaps I shouldn't have chewed so much gum pre-wisdom-teeth-surgery. I'm sorry for that.

Dear nose:

Thanks for being the perfect size. You're awesome.

Dear eyes: 

I'm sorry for coating you in layers of eyeliner for so many years and for never finding the will power to take out my contacts for so long; I know I'm guilty of damaging you. Thank you for putting up with me and still giving me a beautiful blue, green, and gold mix in my eye color. I owe you one. 

Dear arms: 

I wish I toned you better.

Dear fingers: 

You've held, touched, pointed, poked, picked, and grabbed countless things in my lifetime. I don't know how I would survive without each one of you. I'm sorry for cracking you for so long and caused you to swell three times the size of the average finger. 

Dear legs: 

I'm sorry for that year in high school when I covered you up with tight jeans out of embarrassment of you. It was my fault for pushing my leg muscles to develop so early; I shouldn't be embarrassed of thick legs. I think you're beautiful. I'm sorry for all of the bruises, falls, cuts, and scars you've had to endure. I'll try and be more careful with you. 

Dear feet: 

I wish you weren't so flat. But thank you for giving me foundation to walk on everyday and for being silky smooth even without moisturizer. 

Dear lips: 

You're perfect. I'm sorry for that period in my life where I bit the skin off of you and denied you chap stick. Thanks for your awesome kissing abilities, too. 

Dear stomach: 

I'm finally at a point in my life where I truly love you. I'm sorry for starving you in efforts to lose weight. I'm sorry if I destroyed any part of you. If I could take back that point in my life, I would. Thank you for tolerating my poor diet and excessive amounts of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Thank you for accepting the fact that I love cheese and ice cream too much, and even though it pains you, I cannot give it up. And thank you for giving me the line of freckles that look like The Big Dipper. All of my friends thinks that's pretty awesome.

Dear ears: 

Thanks for being the perfect size. I'm sorry I don't clean you more often and you had to go through hell when I pierced my second hole. But thank you for healing properly and not giving up on me. 

Dear knees: 

I'm sorry for making you grow weird from all of those Spread Eagles I did in figure skating when I was younger. I'm also sorry for hating you. And Left Knee, I'm sorry for permanently damaging you because I had to try and be cool that one day in rehearsal. Just don't give up on me yet. 

Dear chest: 

I have nothing to say to you except: THANK YOU. <3

Dear body,

I love you.  

Hollah-Dayzzz!

I really, really enjoy holidays. If there's an excuse to celebrate something, I will find the excuse to celebrate it. I've developed this unhealthy obsession with finding Unofficially Official Holidays. I've discovered that there's a holiday for everything; you just have to find out when the Everything Holiday is. 
So, starting this month, I have been, and will be, celebrating every Unofficially Official Holiday every Official Day in March! March 1st was "World Compliment Day," so I tweeted random followers and posted compliments on Walls! It was also National Pig Day, so I curled my hair in piggy tails and dressed in all pink. Yesterday was National Dress in Blue Day & Dr. Seuss' Birthday! This was definitely my favourite day so far: my brother and sister and I baked Dr. Seuss Cupcakes and watched all of the Dr. Seuss movies, AND made green eggs & ham!  

It was so much fun and I felt like such a kid again! Celebrating all of these weird holidays is definitely a contributing factor to me wanting to feel like I'm doing exciting things with my life. Doing this, along with reading 100 books, and attending Cons and watching my favourite anime shows, just makes me feel so young again. I've decided that I just really don't want to grow up. EVER. I just want to stay young and keep doing all of these weird, spontaneous things to stay alive and not be so focused on school and Financial Aid and work and icky Adult Stuff. It's official. I'm creating my own Never-Never Land. <3


In other news, I finished another book this week! As much as I feel I'd be letting my favourite author down by saying that Tell Me Lies by Jennifer Cruz was better The Fault in Our Stars, I, like Harry, "must not tell lies." It was truly an amazing book, dripping with suspense that literally made the hairs on my arm stand on end, constantly hilarious scenes, and perfectly-developed characters. Ahh, it was so gooddd. I really liked that the story kept switching perspectives, rather than telling the story from one particular point of view. The same scene would be told from three different people, which I thought was really interesting. The only other time I've read a book like that was Let it Snow by John Green, Maureen Johnson, and Lauren Myracle, but it wasn't nearly as literaturely delicious as Tell Me Lies. 


As promised, my daily nerdisms from February 21-28. 
Tuesday: Wore my Firefly t-shirt to school!
Wednesday: Wore a Doctor Who t-shirt and watched Firefly
Thursday: Watched My Little Pony! :D 
Friday: Read my book instead of paid attention in class
Saturday: Played "Harry Potter Scene It?" for HOURS!
Sunday: Extreme Study Sesh 
Monday: Dressed as a "Slytherin School Girl!" <3
Tuesday: Organized myself a Firefly Marathon


I know this is an incredibly long blog, and I apologize. I just have so much stuff going on that I haveee to say! But that's all for now. Oh, and if you want to do the "Celebrate the Unofficially Official Holidays in March," click here!


<3


Books read: 3

Who's Patronus? Sailor PokeMoon's.

MEGACON 

& All of it's Fantasms. 

           It's so easy to fall into the routinely norm of school and work and family and significant others and time wasters, that we almost slip away from who we truly are. I know how corny and cliche that sounds, but it's true for everyone. I think this why I love going to Conventions & Conferences: I get such a high from them. Because you're surrounded by people with the same passions as your's and nothing else matters except participating in the Yu-Gi-Oh! Tournament or taking a picture with a real-life TARDIS. 

          I go through these phases where I feel unaccomplished and bored and like I'm not doing anything meaningful or fun with my life. The feeling overwhelms me and I start an irrational project like wanting to read a hundred books in a year or up-and-go to an Anime/Comics/Sci-Fi Convention in Orlando to meet Tom Felton. I keep tacking things on to this list of things I want to do this year; and since MegaCon, I've compiled yet another list strictly of Cons I want to go to. My goal is at least 3 this year. 3 Cons, 100 books read, 1 book written, and re-watch all 83 episodes of the original Pokemon. 

          I feel like I'm rambling because I pretty much am. There are so many fantastic things I'm planning to do this year. Especially with La Band and reading and writing. The Nerd Cells in my body are so fully charged I feel like I'm going to explode. This is what I love about conventions - they fire you up because you're not worried about homework and workwork, just the things you're passionate about. All I want to do, and in fact, did do, is watch anime, play Mario Brothers, register for conventions, write & record music, and read as many books as possible until I sound like a pretentious know-it-all.  

          Maybe this is why I want to keep going back to cons - maybe I feel I need a constant reminder of who I truly am: A Draco Malfoy fangirl bleeding green and silver, a Doctor Who fanatic shipping Tennant & Rose, a secret Pokemon/Sailor Moon lover at heart who needs a convention to bring it out of her, a Browncoat without a show, a writer lacking a finished product, and a novel-addict with list of goals and accomplishments she keep's forgetting to refer to. 

          I'm making a promise to myself that I'm not going to let society cloud my vision of who I am. I'm going to try and not let myself get into the My-Life-Is-Boring-Rutt because I'm making a point to allow myself one Nerdism a day. Nerdisms will be posted at the end of the week. 

          Also, even if you're not a Nerdfighter but you have things you're passionate about, don't let Life trick you into thinking the things you're passionate about are less important than the things that unfairly prioritize themselves as "having" to be done. 

         


          PS: Tom Felton was absolutely gorgeous and despite the photographer attacking me when I attempted a hug, it was an amazing experience. Got some fantastic t-shirts and hand-drawn Doctor Who art, along with a mini-TARDIS. I'm so hot, wouldn't ya say? 

          PSS: Kind of completely unrelated, but some minor updates: La Band (Now referred to as "Native Tapestries,") is auditioning for Battle of the Bands this weekend; we also have a gig March 3rd. And I was nominated for Student Employee of the Year, so I've got a banquet for that March 28th, and I was invited to some Important Person Dinner Banquet in early March. Sooo.. March will be a good month and now you're updated.

Books read: 2

The "I'm-Single-So-I-Have-The-Right-To-Hate-Valentine's-Day" Epidemic

It's really exciting when something inspires me to blog about society's imperfections. Today's topic: Valentine's Day and Why Single, (or as I was informed earlier,) Cheap People, Hate It. Some history of Valentine's Day...
Valentine's Day originally was to honor Christian martyrs known as Valentinus in 496 A.D. and became the day of expressing affection to loved ones in the form of "courtly love." This was only exclusive in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer, known as the Father of European Literature, until the 15th Century when the tradition of flowers, chocolates, and greeting cards became the expression of affection worldwide. 


What bothers me so much about Valentine's Day is infallible desire for people to criticize Valentine's Day because they don't have a significant other, or just for the mere fact of wanting to be "different" and go against society by expressing callused words like, "I don't need a man, nor a day of flowers and chocolates to be happy." or "Cuddling with myself tonight. Screw the Valentine's Day Commercialism." 


If you're going to hate Valentine's Day because you don't have a lover to spoil you, you might as well hate Halloween because people don't think 20 year olds in costumes is cute anymore..it's creepy and most often, unpleasantly suggestive. And you might as well hate Christmas because Santa doesn't exist, and darn it, "you're getting one big present this year." You better not even think about enjoying Thanksgiving because you hate all of your family members anyway, and the majority of them are in jail or on the pipe...and how could you be remotely thankful for that?


It's just wrong and discriminatory to not enjoy one holiday because you feel as if you don't have the right credentials. Suck it up, push up those girls, and find a man. Maybe if you spent less time on Facebook posting statuses about how much you hate Valentine's Day, you'd use your time more wisely and invest in a mate. 


Happy Valentine's Day! <3

The Resurrection Post

I'm a zombie!

Hello, followers and readers alike! 

I am, in fact, back from the dead. I haven't posted since November 1st, when I was informing everyone of my one-month-hiatus-which-gradually-and-unexpectedly-turned-to-a-three-month-hiatus. Most sincere apologies on my part; hope you all can forgive and refollow! 

First, I want to thank the 75 viewers who have kept checking my blog for updates or rereading old posts back when I had time and NaNoWriMo didn't murder me and all that good, snazzy business. Sidebar: I, *audible sigh*, did not finish NaNoWriMo; I got a little over halfway finished and my "If-I-Don't-Finish-Completely" goal was at least finish halfway. But no worries, I AM going to finish my novel at some point, and it will be edited and revised and hopefully sent out to publishing companies this year. 

Second: After the last post, there were finals and projects and papers, oh my! But I ended up having the greatest winter break of all time. I finally traveled; which is something I've wanted to start doing for awhile. Saw Pennsylvania, New York City, and D.C., plus a bunch amazing little perks like The Crayola Factory and witnessed candy canes be made from scratch and experience snow tubing. Although I missed my family terribly, I spent one beautiful kick-butt month with the boyfriend and his family and they truly made it special for me. Still thanking my family and his family a million times over for letting me experience things I never have before! 

Third: Which catches us somewhat up to the present. I'm taking 18 credits this semester; including, Air Traffic: Orlando TRACON, Air Traffic: Daytona Tower, Evolution of Scientific Thought, Thunderstorms, Occupational Safety, and Music Appreciation & Criticism. Wide variety of classes, I know. It's consuming me and taking up the majority of my time, but I desperately want to finish a year and a half early. And I'm totally going to because I'm like, a superhuman. 

Fourth: Speaking of superhumanisms, a couple of my friends and I have somehow compiled what seems to be a Folk Indie band. And we're pretty much fantastic. I'm absolutely more excited about this than like, anything right now. Mostly because a) I haven't had anything to do with anything musical in over a year and b) there's so much talent between the three of us, it's explosive. We're in-between-names at the moment because apparently there's a Tapestry Music Collective, which for some reason, sounds too much like The Tapestry Collective. Click here for fantasmic talent! We performed Monday night at the campus talent show (which can be seen in the aforementioned link) and the audience was extremely responsive. It's definitely something we all want to pursue and are ridiculously excited about. More details on this business later--like a band name and upcoming performances and all that good musical stuff. 

Fifth: I'm resetting goals for myself. The first being, read 100 books this year. I have no idea how I'm going to do it, but I'm so ready to do this. I also want to finish my novel, start a journal of famous last words, and TRAVEL. More on this later, I really should be studying for a test. 

Sixth & Last: I'M MEETING TOM FELTON NEXT WEEKEND AT MEGACON! Ahhhh, freaking out, excited, can't handle it, going crazy, fangirl, fangirl, fangirl! Etcetera. 

Well, that's all folks. Promise I won't be a zombie anymore. I've already used my Zombie Card. No more disappearing acts! 

Books read: 1